Saturday, January 06, 2007♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YICHING ! :D i'm back after a short week of school .kinda hectic like what jiahui said in her blog . back from cca orientation, so so so tired . school's been okay but i really really really miss 2e3 ! was listening to " i'll remember you " this morning then the video that samuel made came " rushing " in . all the tears and all that happened last year came into my head & i thought of a couple of this & that . teared a little too . i miss the noisy & mischievious 2e3 o6 ! i miss being monitress of 2e3 ! &ALL the peeps in it especially ! sigh * but luckily i'm still having some fun in school with those near my seat ( : performance was okay today ^^ mini band was okay too i guess , had fun playing , screaming " join band ! " & stuffs . so tired that after everybody went off , i slept in band room with some lullaby played by liyan .thanks lao yan ! lol . but all this while, when i'm having fun & things like tt. something inside kept on bugging me =\ let this friend of mine be [ x ] . me & liyan were talking about [x] yesterday . i was saying things like , [x] is such an asshole in chinese & stuffs like that . not appreciative blah blah blah & blah . today ,i was sarcastic & didn't like be warm? to [x] , so yah , we didn't talked much . but after a mini meeting , i heard J say tt [x] didn't slept much this few days & he was up till 4 plus doing the video . at that point of time , i felt really guilty . i only thought about myself & not his feelings . i didn't realise he hasn't had decent sleeping hours this few days, things like that . i didn't put myself in his shoes . so now , i want to apologise for everything that i've said & i'm really sorry ! * i hope [x] sees this told liyan that i will at times or most of the time, shoot my mouth off without thinking & only after something happen , i will regret it =/ only those who know me well will know tt i didn't mean it bah ? hmms .. i awfully want to change tt bad habit of mine , any person willing to render some help ? talked about jealousy too & i do think that when someone is jealous ,it makes you think negatively & it makes you feel rather miserable .boo ! i don't want to feel miserable ! till next post , tata ! my chest feels tight & i do hope this feeling will go away really soon .
;
1:49 AM
------
